Running on empty but still running Bookmark and Share

Today I ran 4.5 miles. It was a shock both mentally and physically. I haven't run more than three miles in more than four years. But today, despite how much I wanted to stay in bed and sleep off my Christmas party wine, I was determined to run the last race of the year put on by the Rocky Mountain Road Runners club that we are in. 

Mile one was great: on pace and heart rate low. At mile two, my left knee started to ache. At about two-and-a-half, my left hip was aching. At mile three, I ...

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The ticking time bomb in the house Bookmark and Share

My daughter is 5 today. As has been the case every November 29 since the day she was born, I will spend the day in emotional chaos. 

Two reasons. First, my daughter's entry into the world was challenging: she was transferred to another hospital at four hours old, had surgery at five days old and spent 25 long, tedious days in the NICU. Every year I relive the events and emotions of the most joyful and terrifying day of my life and the month that followed.I was 34, so technically I had been an adult for quite ...

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To be or not to be Bookmark and Share

The problem with self-awareness is that you start to notice areas where you’re out of balance. I’ve always been a “doer,” constantly in motion—the I’ll-sleep-when-I’m-dead-kind-of-person.

Yet, I often find myself wondering where time went. And even though I’m enjoying lots of fun things in the moment, I don’t take the time to reflect and process them. I don’t think I’m the only one. Being busy is the new black apparently. We’re all caught up in the rush of doing things instead of being someone. 

Since having a child I’ve ...

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Thankfulness Bookmark and Share

In preparation for feeding my face later this afternoon, I headed out for a morning run. Sunny, nearly 50 degrees, crisp air. Cranked up One Republic’s “Good Life” (definitely worth listening to). Perfect.

Within two minutes, my throat was constricting, I had tears in my eyes and my heart ached. No, I wasn’t sad. It’s simply my reaction to Thanksgiving, my favorite holiday. A holiday purely about eating, drinking and spending time with people you love without expectations. It’s perfect.

So here is what spewed from my heart this morning I ran, listening to an endless ...

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A bridesmaid at 39 Bookmark and Share

The day I received a beautiful card in the mail from one of my dearest friends asking me to be in her wedding, I cried. She told me how much our nine-year friendship has meant to her and how much she wanted me to be by her side as she married the man she loved. To be her matron of honor is an honor that I have only begun to appreciate in recent years as I’ve learned the importance of strong friendships and happy marriages.

My friend and I both relocated to Colorado from the Midwest in our 20s ...

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