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Today I ran 4.5 miles. It was a shock both mentally and physically. I haven't run more than three miles in more than four years. But today, despite how much I wanted to stay in bed and sleep off my Christmas party wine, I was determined to run the last race of the year put on by the Rocky Mountain Road Runners club that we are in. 

Mile one was great: on pace and heart rate low. At mile two, my left knee started to ache. At about two-and-a-half, my left hip was aching. At mile three, I thought I might cry and I began to question my sanity in attempting this run. Then just as I was ready to slow to a walk, there it was in my ear buds: "Dancing Queen" (yes, I have this on my phone and no, I'm not embarrassed to admit it, even though I probably should be). I am not young and sweet and only 17 any more, but guess what? I didn't have a chance in hell of running 4.5 miles when I was 17. I could barely run a mile then. Today, I can.

I listened to the song twice and I pushed things into high gear. My heart rate spiked above 180 for the remaining mile and a half of my run, my other knee even began to ache a bit. But my heart felt good and my mind cheered me on. 

My body will surely hurt tomorrow morning--hell I may barely be able to walk!--but my pride is strong today. Sometimes when you're running on empty, it's your heart that keeps you going. Sometimes it's pride that has something to prove. Sometimes it's a song that reminds you of who you once were and who you still can be. 

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  1. Gigi

    Gigi on 12/05/2012 6:43 a.m. #

    Thanks for the reminded. I had a weekend that made me want to give up on myself and others. Sometimes all you can do is put one foot in front of the other until you make it out of the crap.

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