Sometime Grief Is Unexpectedly Purple Bookmark and Share

Sometime Grief Is Unexpectedly Purple

I have never been one to mourn celebrities. Some big ones have died in the past year, and while I thought their deaths unfortunate and sad, I never felt compelled to express my emotions on Facebook or anywhere else. It all seemed a tad silly to me to shed tears over someone you had never met.

And yet, this morning I could barely pull myself out of bed. A fog has surrounded my brain all day. I am exhausted with overwhelming melancholy I cannot shake. I want to crawl into bed and wake up to a new day. I haven ...

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Surviving Midlife Requires a Little Help from Your Friends Bookmark and Share

A friend of mine turned 41 last month, and she mentioned that she wanted her 30s back. I found her comment intriguing because at the ripe old age of 42, I (usually) don’t feel that way at all.

Sure, I wouldn’t mind my 30-something metabolism and lack of age spots, but what I recall of my 30s is that they were some of the most stressful years of my life. You couldn’t pay me enough to repeat them.

As I pondered my friend’s statement, though, I remembered how I felt turning 41. It kind of sucked ...

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A Night in My College Town Made Me Feel Young -- and Really Old Bookmark and Share

A Night in My College Town Made Me Feel Young -- and Really Old

If you want to feel delightfully young and horrifically ancient at the same time, go out on a Saturday night with your former roommate and your husbands in the town you where you went to college.

This is the lesson I learned recently while sipping a sugary Long Island iced tea the size of a Big Gulp (only $4!). This disgusting concoction seemed like a great idea after four glasses of wine and a comment from the bartender that I was old enough to be his mother.

OK, so that’s an exaggeration. What actually happened is I told the ...

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I’m Grateful Anger No Longer Consumes Me Bookmark and Share

I’m Grateful Anger No Longer Consumes Me

This morning as I lay on the living floor doing extremely uncomfortable physical therapy exercises for my neck, an unexpected thought popped into my head: I am so grateful I’m not angry all the time any more.

Tomorrow is Thanksgiving so feelings of gratitude shouldn’t be surprising, but I wasn’t quite sure where this one came from. Yet, it is truly what I am most thankful for this year.

When I returned to work full time last February, my biggest fear was turning back into “scary mommy.” I had spent the previous two years trying to figure ...

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The Simple Beauty of a Monday Birthday Bookmark and Share

The Simple Beauty of a Monday Birthday

When my alarm started singing at 5:30 this morning, I quickly hit snooze and snuggled under the covers to lament about how Monday is the worst day to have a birthday.

Calling in sick on your birthday is highly suspicious, so I pulled my groggy butt out of bed and attempted to prepare myself for the first day of what will be an exhausting week.

In recent years I’ve started this weird habit on my birthday of asking myself, “If I died today, would I be happy?” It sounds morbid, but it helps keep me honest.

 Today’s ...

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